Sometimes,
I sincerely wish that life came with brilliant flashing neon signs.
because being ignorant isn’t as beautiful, or as blissful as we make it out to be.
It just makes you stupid.
Open up your eyes, and your mind.
October 2010
Day 2: Piercings and Tattoos
Have: My ears pierced, no tattoos.
WANT: A monroe, and a chinese dragon on my left shoulder blade, with my chinese surname underneath it. <3
“
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.
Hahahaha.
Dear Cedric Diggory,
Vampires don’t sparkle. 20 points from Hufflepuff!
Sincerely, Snape.
Wuthering Heights
“Why do you love him, Mrs. Cathy?”
“Nonsense, I do—that’s sufficent.”
“By no means; you must say why?”
“Well, because he is handsome and pleasant to be with.”
“Bad!” was my commentary.
“And because he is young, and cheerful.”
“Bad, still.”
“And because he loves me.”
“Indifferent, coming there.”
“And he will be rich, and I shall be the greatest woman of the neighborhood and I shall be proud of having such a husband.”
“Worst of all. And now, say how you love him?”
“As everybody loves. You’re silly, Nelly.”
“Not at all—answer.”
“I love the ground underneath his feet, and the air above his head, and everything he touches, and every word he says. I love all his books and all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. THERE NOW!”
<3
“
I cut down the cherry tree
and when my mother confronted me
I told her I could never tell a lie.
Cause I have integrity
if you had been there then you’d agree
that no one wants to hear the truth.
Written on that day, a year later.
I want someone who lets me stay independent, provides solutions without TELLING me what to do, and lets me fight my own battles. I want someone who will only stand up for me when I’m too hurt to stand up for myself. I want someone who understands that not every waking moment will be spent with them, and that if I don’t defend them, it doesn’t mean I don’t love them; it simply means that I want to see them be strong in thier own right. I want someone who won’t try to match me on an external level, but on an internal level in terms of intelligence and empathy. I want someone who isn’t clingy, except when I can’t stand to be alone. And though too much to ask, someone to deal with the jealousy. I want someone who has a bit of chivalry left in his heart, someone who will stay up with me when I’m sick and watch old movies with me. I want someone who is honest, and unwavering, to have faith in me when I’m too low to even believe in myself. I want someone who knows when to take advantage of the situation and just make me feel new, and alive, without trying too much, or prying in order to uncover a new layer. And in that way, I want someone who won’t ask me too many questions, even if I drive them crazy by asking my own. I’d like someone who looks at me like they’d believe me if I said I was innocent with blood on my hands, with a type of admiration that in itself is admirable, a strong type of devotion without being sickly over involved. I want someone comfortable enough to walk around with bedhead all day, eating cereal with me on the countertops while I run my hands through his hair. I want someone who is clean without being obsessive, without telling me how to live my own life, but overall, a boy who will wash my sheets when I ask him to. I want someone who will turn off the T.V. when I ask him to. I want someone who lets me spill everything out to him, in a single sitting without running scared to his buddies; someone who will lay with me in an empty field and sing softly. I want someone who jokes around, who lets me indulge in being playful once or twice or whenever I feel like it, without looking at me like I’m absolutely insane. And I want someone who will pack picnics and take me out to star gaze, or see the colors change in Autumn. I want someone who gets so nervous they stutter when they speak, and then smile stupidly, because he would be my favorite. I want someone who’s hands would sweat when he would think of me, but grab my hands nonetheless whenever he saw me. I want someone who’s a workaholic, but good enough at what he does that he can take a vacation to Cabo whenever we feel the need…and I want someone, lastly who’s beautiful, externally, as well as internally; someone who prides himself in appearance, but is not afraid to feed ducks with me.
I want someone like you.
(september 11th, 2010)
